Would you believe me, if I said,
That I would never go?
Could you drink of my ageless love,
When the cups does overflow?
I shall always remember,
The memories I shared with you,
Forever etched in this longing heart,
Even should time split us two.
When you walk away my dear,
Please look a glance behind,
I shall be as shadows near,
My touch you'll always find.
I am still here for you,
Please believe this begging soul,
Life is worth for just one kiss,
From you my love of old.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Sunrise
Dawn lights the rocky seas,
as the weathered rocks are shown,
she shines upon the rocks and trees,
that lay hinged before the blown.
She strokes the gentle ocean tides,
as the soft green waves unfold,
and caressed the hills and countrysides,
that lay cuddled in the kindly cold.
She danced upon the quavering reeds,
as they shelter from the morning hue,
she kissed the green of a newformed seed,
that lay thirsted for the falling dew.
She hugged, with warmth, the newborn doe;
as it shivers in her blinding light,
she shines upon the dew that glows,
like a jewel on a darkest night.
Dawn lights the endless lands,
that dwell by the unknown,
she clings to day with her ending sands,
as she hinges before the blown.
as the weathered rocks are shown,
she shines upon the rocks and trees,
that lay hinged before the blown.
She strokes the gentle ocean tides,
as the soft green waves unfold,
and caressed the hills and countrysides,
that lay cuddled in the kindly cold.
She danced upon the quavering reeds,
as they shelter from the morning hue,
she kissed the green of a newformed seed,
that lay thirsted for the falling dew.
She hugged, with warmth, the newborn doe;
as it shivers in her blinding light,
she shines upon the dew that glows,
like a jewel on a darkest night.
Dawn lights the endless lands,
that dwell by the unknown,
she clings to day with her ending sands,
as she hinges before the blown.
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
A Leaf Upon the Winds
I am like a falling leaf, fallen from a branch up high;
Blown away so quietly, by a wind from the eastern sky.
You are like the eastern wind, coming from lands afar;
To bring the promise of eternity, to heal an aching scar.
I am like the falling leaf, blown waysides and beyond;
And I drift on your eastern breeze, so galeful yet forlorn?
You are like the eastern wind, blowing such sweet romance:
"Will you seek with me a deep true love, perhaps another chance?"
"I go where you go my love, my soul shall be forsake;
But I am but a wayward leaf, no passage do I take."
Then you like the eastern wind, blowing this soft caress;
You lift me far and lift me high but I'll fall down nontheless.
I am the falling leaf, dancing in your warm, sweet breeze;
But your winds will take you far away, each moment we must seize.
Then I the wayward leaf, will come gently onto the earth;
Your eastern gale has come and gone, my destiny you can't reverse.
Blown away so quietly, by a wind from the eastern sky.
You are like the eastern wind, coming from lands afar;
To bring the promise of eternity, to heal an aching scar.
I am like the falling leaf, blown waysides and beyond;
And I drift on your eastern breeze, so galeful yet forlorn?
You are like the eastern wind, blowing such sweet romance:
"Will you seek with me a deep true love, perhaps another chance?"
"I go where you go my love, my soul shall be forsake;
But I am but a wayward leaf, no passage do I take."
Then you like the eastern wind, blowing this soft caress;
You lift me far and lift me high but I'll fall down nontheless.
I am the falling leaf, dancing in your warm, sweet breeze;
But your winds will take you far away, each moment we must seize.
Then I the wayward leaf, will come gently onto the earth;
Your eastern gale has come and gone, my destiny you can't reverse.
Monday, March 19, 2007
Insomnia
It's a jumble of feelings. Sometimes when I think of all the new things we're going to have to do, or get used to over in Singapore. Add the fact that we won't have our support system 30 minutes away from us, it feels more than a little intimidating.
Starting a family is challenging enough, starting one while overseas and distant from your close friends and relatives is even more so. Yeah we have acquiantances and family there, but I don't about the wife, I've basically been incomunicado with them for a little over 5 years now - the family I mean.
At the same time its also good to have time to spend with each other and really create that singular family unit - without any parental units to butt in. That's going to be a relief more or less. Less comments, less suggestions, less pressure, we're going to be left to our own devices.
I guess overall, I'm less worried about the job than about the hassle of moving there. Thinking of what to buy, what to bring over. Packing, moving, unpacking. Reorganising this and that. The logistics of "stuff" and "people" are going to be hell to organise, and I'm not the most organised person in the world.
So I decided to start yesterday night. Spent most of the night sorting out old files, letters, bills and cleaning out the bookshelf in the study that has been cluttered with our junk. Basically we're both a little bit paranoid about throwing things away, she more so than me. So once in a while I just need to crack the whip and throw away things that's been sitting on the shelves. It's amazing how much space old letters and receipts take, managed to collect a whole huge trash bag worth! Finished at 4 am though.
Next will be filing stuff. Probably get the files next few days and create a proper filing system for all the Important Stuff, and neat bins for all the Possibly Important Stuff, and smite anything older than 2 years. Eventually I'll need to check out both storerooms and seek and destroy more junk, make a list of all the things useful and then separate them to Keep Here, Bring Along and Give Away. Then it'll be the kitchen and the rest of the stuff in the house, which probably won't happen until later in the year when the whole family moves over. Books will definitely stay. At the rate we're buying I'll need a house just for the books. So much work. Urgh.
Woke up this morning feeling sleepy, wanted to call in a holiday, but had stuff to discuss with boss, and since I won't be sleeping anyway there's really no point in staying home.
Starting a family is challenging enough, starting one while overseas and distant from your close friends and relatives is even more so. Yeah we have acquiantances and family there, but I don't about the wife, I've basically been incomunicado with them for a little over 5 years now - the family I mean.
At the same time its also good to have time to spend with each other and really create that singular family unit - without any parental units to butt in. That's going to be a relief more or less. Less comments, less suggestions, less pressure, we're going to be left to our own devices.
I guess overall, I'm less worried about the job than about the hassle of moving there. Thinking of what to buy, what to bring over. Packing, moving, unpacking. Reorganising this and that. The logistics of "stuff" and "people" are going to be hell to organise, and I'm not the most organised person in the world.
So I decided to start yesterday night. Spent most of the night sorting out old files, letters, bills and cleaning out the bookshelf in the study that has been cluttered with our junk. Basically we're both a little bit paranoid about throwing things away, she more so than me. So once in a while I just need to crack the whip and throw away things that's been sitting on the shelves. It's amazing how much space old letters and receipts take, managed to collect a whole huge trash bag worth! Finished at 4 am though.
Next will be filing stuff. Probably get the files next few days and create a proper filing system for all the Important Stuff, and neat bins for all the Possibly Important Stuff, and smite anything older than 2 years. Eventually I'll need to check out both storerooms and seek and destroy more junk, make a list of all the things useful and then separate them to Keep Here, Bring Along and Give Away. Then it'll be the kitchen and the rest of the stuff in the house, which probably won't happen until later in the year when the whole family moves over. Books will definitely stay. At the rate we're buying I'll need a house just for the books. So much work. Urgh.
Woke up this morning feeling sleepy, wanted to call in a holiday, but had stuff to discuss with boss, and since I won't be sleeping anyway there's really no point in staying home.
Friday, March 16, 2007
I have no empathy?
A strange but necessary conversation with one of my staffs revealed that for someone to be a good trader he must have among skills: high drive, strong resilience and no empathy. Apparently this is what he was told during a personality test and "job-fit" questionaire that qualified leaders had to take. I passed mine already and went through to a couple more and now I do recall some mention about empathy. I should pay more attention to these people.
So it's quite disturbing to think that I may not have much empathy for people. And you know what... given how anti-social I can be sometimes, it may be true. This empathy is described as being able to perform the trading duties, without any need for emotional support or having a need to give emotional support to the counterpart or customer. In simple terms to be able to sell something to someone and make decent money without feeling guilty or regret.
In social terms I don't know how to describe it, but I guess it's how well you connect to other people and "empathise" with them.
In his case, it was revealed that he had too much empathy for people and have the need to just help everyone. That's the reason apparently for his stress levels. Always trying to please too many people. Well as for me, I'm just happy pleasing myself. Does it sound like me? Yeah it kinda does. I hardly get stressed out if a delivery is screwed (because of forces I cannot control) or if I make an obscene amount of profit. Apparently some people do.
So while it seems like I'm suited for the job, I'm left wondering if it's the job that made me, or am I made for the job all along?
So it's quite disturbing to think that I may not have much empathy for people. And you know what... given how anti-social I can be sometimes, it may be true. This empathy is described as being able to perform the trading duties, without any need for emotional support or having a need to give emotional support to the counterpart or customer. In simple terms to be able to sell something to someone and make decent money without feeling guilty or regret.
In social terms I don't know how to describe it, but I guess it's how well you connect to other people and "empathise" with them.
In his case, it was revealed that he had too much empathy for people and have the need to just help everyone. That's the reason apparently for his stress levels. Always trying to please too many people. Well as for me, I'm just happy pleasing myself. Does it sound like me? Yeah it kinda does. I hardly get stressed out if a delivery is screwed (because of forces I cannot control) or if I make an obscene amount of profit. Apparently some people do.
So while it seems like I'm suited for the job, I'm left wondering if it's the job that made me, or am I made for the job all along?
Web it?
I've been going online to look for resources or websites relating to pregnancies or birth or childcare. There are tons of course but rare it is to find a local site that has the information that we need. In fact I haven't found one yet. Not a single local childcare / childbirth website that can give hospital news and information, information on courses, products etc. Are we so far down the technological ladder that no one has thought of using the internet to build this kind of service? Wife has also been up several trees on this, said she found a great site but guess what.. Singaporean. Sigh.
Well since we've seen the need, maybe we should start one. I mean the only alternative we have now is to actually call up hospitals, or go asking around people who's "done it." Of course knowing how friendly the local customer services here are usually, its not something I'm particularly looking forward to.
In any case, at the very least we will have to check out our chosen hospital. That much is okay, but they could have at least put more information in their website. There's absolutely nothing about childbirth information on their site. The same is true for a few other hospitals I've checked. The internet is nothing more than a glorified yellow pages for these guys, its like reading a prospectus or a brochure. So no imagination one. Useless in fact. For an example of a pretty good hospital website check out Beaumont Hospitals' site. Its in the US. Not the most flashy site, but all the relevant info is there. It's at least functional.
Looks like we'll have to manually do this. Bleh..
Well since we've seen the need, maybe we should start one. I mean the only alternative we have now is to actually call up hospitals, or go asking around people who's "done it." Of course knowing how friendly the local customer services here are usually, its not something I'm particularly looking forward to.
In any case, at the very least we will have to check out our chosen hospital. That much is okay, but they could have at least put more information in their website. There's absolutely nothing about childbirth information on their site. The same is true for a few other hospitals I've checked. The internet is nothing more than a glorified yellow pages for these guys, its like reading a prospectus or a brochure. So no imagination one. Useless in fact. For an example of a pretty good hospital website check out Beaumont Hospitals' site. Its in the US. Not the most flashy site, but all the relevant info is there. It's at least functional.
Looks like we'll have to manually do this. Bleh..
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Its a Girl!
We did the scans last week and finally found out that we are expecting a girl. So time to sharpen those pencils and start coming up with a namelist... it's a short list so far. I won't discuss the options here, don't want to ruin the surprise, but it's between 2-3 names.
The question now is more about whether we're going to have a long one, that includes a Chinese name or not. I am open to ideas, so anyone feel free to suggest.
The question now is more about whether we're going to have a long one, that includes a Chinese name or not. I am open to ideas, so anyone feel free to suggest.
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Baby Names!
Here's a quick one. Wife and I were pondering baby names, while it may seem like a great idea that we wait until we know if its a boy or a girl before thinking (yes we're that lazy), a friend suggested we prepare for both!
Makes sense because you never really know until the baby is born, seriously, seems like there's a still a good chance that the earlier scans (no matter how many times it was taken) could be wrong. Maybe the eyes missed something. Anyway, I was told of her sister who apparently was told over and over again that it was a girl. A last minute scans, we're talking about the day before delivery kind of last minute, confirmed it was still a girl. Then voila, out came the birdie! Whoops! Luckily they were prepared for both.
We've seem to be able to come up with more girls names than boys. The score is at least 3 to 1. But because of disagreements its closer to 2-0. Yup so sad, can't think of a name for a boy. Not to say that we've cleared the names with the Parental Units either. Parental Unit M is nearly insistent on a "religious" name. We're pretty much thinking global. To me, its got to have a good meaning and doesn't spell or sound like anything horrible in any major foreign tongue. Don't know what the in-laws think, although I doubt they will be as picky as Unit M. Unit F doesn't really have much to say about it, as usual.
As an afterthought, yes I've quit my last job and will be taking on a new one in Singapore. Yay! Of course current company being what it is, I've got to slog through another 3 months because they are insisting on a 3 month notice. Weird thing is they still haven't taken me off any major decision making roles... I'm still doing what I was doing and have just been made in charge of another product. Maybe the whole thing hasn't really struck home for the bosses. We'll see what happens next week.
Felt: Free
Seen: Heroes
Heard: Barry White, Let's Get it On
Makes sense because you never really know until the baby is born, seriously, seems like there's a still a good chance that the earlier scans (no matter how many times it was taken) could be wrong. Maybe the eyes missed something. Anyway, I was told of her sister who apparently was told over and over again that it was a girl. A last minute scans, we're talking about the day before delivery kind of last minute, confirmed it was still a girl. Then voila, out came the birdie! Whoops! Luckily they were prepared for both.
We've seem to be able to come up with more girls names than boys. The score is at least 3 to 1. But because of disagreements its closer to 2-0. Yup so sad, can't think of a name for a boy. Not to say that we've cleared the names with the Parental Units either. Parental Unit M is nearly insistent on a "religious" name. We're pretty much thinking global. To me, its got to have a good meaning and doesn't spell or sound like anything horrible in any major foreign tongue. Don't know what the in-laws think, although I doubt they will be as picky as Unit M. Unit F doesn't really have much to say about it, as usual.
As an afterthought, yes I've quit my last job and will be taking on a new one in Singapore. Yay! Of course current company being what it is, I've got to slog through another 3 months because they are insisting on a 3 month notice. Weird thing is they still haven't taken me off any major decision making roles... I'm still doing what I was doing and have just been made in charge of another product. Maybe the whole thing hasn't really struck home for the bosses. We'll see what happens next week.
Felt: Free
Seen: Heroes
Heard: Barry White, Let's Get it On
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Monday, February 26, 2007
Cuti Cuti Singapura
Wow, 17 days since my last post. Actually to me it was less, had a post that never made it. Drafted, thought wanted to edit a bit - changed my mind. Was in Singapore over the weekend and I though I have many things to write, time and rather risk of not finishing (like last post which never made it - like it makes a difference to you) means I will put it down in point form.
1. Sales are really good in Singapore. When they discount its a real discount and its actually stuff you want to buy, not the offsized, lemon green crumpled up mess of a shirt in the cheap bin. But nice stuff. Of course I could have just gotten lucky, but if anyone's been shopping in sales in KL may agree with me.
2. A little planning goes a long way. Everything is so organised. I've been down too many times to count. But its usually the day business trips, in and out in 8 hours kinda thing. So.. I have never really been "around" in Singapore. As in the tourist fashion. So its kinda fun. Of course you can probably cover the main attractions in 5 days (or less) the point is its amazingly well thought out. Locations, malls, public transport and even the converted old buildings are nice.
3. Cost of living is lower. Strangely yes. I thought it was stupid at first, but things are actually cheaper there if you were a SGD earner - dollar per dollar / don't convert. The only thing expensive is the housing and cars, that kicks the cost of living up a lot. Food and everything else is similar or lower. But some luxury imports are more expensive.
4. Lots of options for vegetarians. Didn't really notice this at first, but met a veggie friend there who said it was so. Then I begin to notice that there's at least 1 veggie only stall in every single foodcourt, this is not counting restaurants. Theory: we probably notice it more because a) its an island b) things are closer together.
Next trip will be in March, we're planning to watch Phantom of the Opera showing at the esplanade. Probably will be one of the last trips we take together as a vacation for the next year or so. I never did like the idea of travelling with infants.
Felt: Cautiously giddy
Seen: The Oscars
Read: Tom Holt
1. Sales are really good in Singapore. When they discount its a real discount and its actually stuff you want to buy, not the offsized, lemon green crumpled up mess of a shirt in the cheap bin. But nice stuff. Of course I could have just gotten lucky, but if anyone's been shopping in sales in KL may agree with me.
2. A little planning goes a long way. Everything is so organised. I've been down too many times to count. But its usually the day business trips, in and out in 8 hours kinda thing. So.. I have never really been "around" in Singapore. As in the tourist fashion. So its kinda fun. Of course you can probably cover the main attractions in 5 days (or less) the point is its amazingly well thought out. Locations, malls, public transport and even the converted old buildings are nice.
3. Cost of living is lower. Strangely yes. I thought it was stupid at first, but things are actually cheaper there if you were a SGD earner - dollar per dollar / don't convert. The only thing expensive is the housing and cars, that kicks the cost of living up a lot. Food and everything else is similar or lower. But some luxury imports are more expensive.
4. Lots of options for vegetarians. Didn't really notice this at first, but met a veggie friend there who said it was so. Then I begin to notice that there's at least 1 veggie only stall in every single foodcourt, this is not counting restaurants. Theory: we probably notice it more because a) its an island b) things are closer together.
Next trip will be in March, we're planning to watch Phantom of the Opera showing at the esplanade. Probably will be one of the last trips we take together as a vacation for the next year or so. I never did like the idea of travelling with infants.
Felt: Cautiously giddy
Seen: The Oscars
Read: Tom Holt
Friday, February 09, 2007
Baby Contract
Reading too many contracts and getting my head clogged up with jargons. This happens to us here a lot and we begin automatically replacing jargons for normal words. Here's a gag... what would a baby contract look like?
Buyer : Rizal And Pauline Inc. (Pauline and Rizal Co.)
Seller : God aka "higher being"
Duration : Evergreen with automatic renewal conditions
Product : Baby (gender undertermined) - CAS 600 600 644 644
Quantity : One
Quality : To be determined
Price : Oh you're so gonna pay
Payment : In advance
Delivery : Naturally, CFR
Shipment : ETA July 2007
Felt: Tired and hungry
Read: The Khairy Chronicles
Heard: El Grand Combo, Me Libere
Buyer : Rizal And Pauline Inc. (Pauline and Rizal Co.)
Seller : God aka "higher being"
Duration : Evergreen with automatic renewal conditions
Product : Baby (gender undertermined) - CAS 600 600 644 644
Quantity : One
Quality : To be determined
Price : Oh you're so gonna pay
Payment : In advance
Delivery : Naturally, CFR
Shipment : ETA July 2007
Felt: Tired and hungry
Read: The Khairy Chronicles
Heard: El Grand Combo, Me Libere
Thursday, February 08, 2007
New Blog, New Baby
I wanted to start a new blog, got bored with this one. Seems it's not heading the way its supposed to head. My fault really, it is my blog, but its not ending up having the kind of content I originally wanted it to have. Maybe my writing is just crap. Or what I'm writing about is just crap.
Anyway, fiddled with blogger but can't really get it to change much without suffering through too much work. The templates are useful, but all these additional widgets are so damn confusing to install and never seem to work right. A redesign won't be too bad either.
If you've been following the wife's blog then the news has been out for a while. We're expecting a baby. Well I say WE, but really she's doing all the work. I just have to worry for both of us. When I tell people about the baby, the typical response would be,
"First one?"
Nod
Look for utter surprise and joy, "Wow, that's so great! Congratulations!"
Nod Nod Smile
"So when is she due?"
....
"Oh you must be so excited!"
"Yes?"
Its been a blur actually. Or rather I've been blur. I usually think what's the appropriate response to some of these comments and I haven't come with anything that I think describes the actual feeling. "Nice, great, excited" doesn't really cut it. Although the phrase "heavy with anticipation" comes rather close. Or rather the simpler "overwhelmed".
So yes, WE will be a having a baby.
Anyway, fiddled with blogger but can't really get it to change much without suffering through too much work. The templates are useful, but all these additional widgets are so damn confusing to install and never seem to work right. A redesign won't be too bad either.
If you've been following the wife's blog then the news has been out for a while. We're expecting a baby. Well I say WE, but really she's doing all the work. I just have to worry for both of us. When I tell people about the baby, the typical response would be,
"First one?"
Nod
Look for utter surprise and joy, "Wow, that's so great! Congratulations!"
Nod Nod Smile
"So when is she due?"
....
"Oh you must be so excited!"
"Yes?"
Its been a blur actually. Or rather I've been blur. I usually think what's the appropriate response to some of these comments and I haven't come with anything that I think describes the actual feeling. "Nice, great, excited" doesn't really cut it. Although the phrase "heavy with anticipation" comes rather close. Or rather the simpler "overwhelmed".
So yes, WE will be a having a baby.
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